Friday, August 04, 2006

we need more garimas but no schools like DPS..

Barkha Dutt
Managing Editor, NDTV 24x7
Saturday, June 24, 2006:

One of the most awkward - and yet, strangely compelling - things about journalism is that sometimes your work makes you hold a mirror to your own life.

This past week, a quiet, but determined 16-year-old became an unexpected reflection of my education.

I have always believed that my school and college years were the first architects of my personality; like every middle-class Indian, I take pride in where I studied and what I was taught. And yet, the gentle idealism of this young girl made me pause to wonder: Had my public-school education been shamefully elitist?

At first, the story seemed straightforward enough. Garima Godara, a CBSE topper, with an astonishing 97.6 per cent had taken the entrance exam for the DelhiPublic School (Dwarka), the school closest to her village.

The daughter of a police constable who earned less than Rs 6,000 a month, the school's fees would have been a problem. But the family was undeterred; perhaps there would be a scholarship or a loan; surely the school would be keen to admit the girl who had topped the national capital's merit list.

Garima's proud father had spent months battling the entrenched patriarchy of his peers, fending off nosy neighbours who gossiped about why she didn't spend enough time in the kitchen. Now, he was even more determined to give his daughter the best education her marks could buy.

This could have been the story of New India and its emerging, self-made middle class; a proud milestone for a country that dares to dream.Instead, here's what happened: DPS turned her down. Her results were good, it conceded. But marks aren't everything, said the school principal to NDTV, andbesides, her English was poor, and just didn't cut the grade.

Later, listening to Garima in the studio, it was hard not to feel both angry and moved. Angry because of the obvious injustice: not only was she as bright as her results indicated; there was nothing about her spoken English that suggested that she would have been unable to keep pace with the syllabus.

Yes, she spoke with a regional accent that some would consider insufficiently sophisticated. But there was no doubt that she could not only follow a complex argument, she could also make herself understood to any English speaker.

But it was her calm that was almost heart breaking; a quiet courage that belied her teen years. It was almost as if we were more outraged and indignant than she was. During the course of the programme, a principal from a well-known school in Dehradun called in, offering her admission and a scholarship; others promised toget DPS to change its mind.

But betraying only the slightest sense of hurt, she said firmly that her aim now was to show DPS that she would do better than any of its students. She had already got herself admitted to another school, and DPS could quite simply, take a walk.

As she spoke, viewers clearly shared my anger. The online poll showed that 90 per cent of viewers believed that the English language exerted a disproportionate influence over the education system.

Yet, were we all being hypocritical and dishonest? This time it was DPS under the microscope, but were any of us any different?Let's say she continued to do outstandingly well in school. The next stage would be college. I pictured her trying to take the entrance interview at my old college, Delhi's St Stephen's. Would she get in? And even if she made the cut, how would other students react to her presence? Would they admire her for her academic brilliance? Or would they snigger at her accent, titter each time she made a grammatical error and then, melt away, leaving her alone to find her own friends?

Garima's story is a metaphor for India's twisted tryst with the future. I learnt after the programme was over - and it is significant that neither she nor her parents brought this up themselves - that she is an OBC.

For some months now, as the debate over reservation has raged, opponents of the quotas have made the same point again and again: we should be a society where merit matters. It's a compelling argument, and one that I have personally supported.

But what do the anti-quota street fighters have to say now? Here's a girl who competed in the mainstream, her own Hindi medium DAV pitched against the trendier, richer, big names. But her merit was swallowed up by prejudice.

Is it any wonder then that supporters of reservation believe that the system is stacked against them, and that merit is a con-word used by upper-caste tricksters?Her story is also a scathing comment on the class divide in India. It is fashionable for marketeers and economists to talk about the burgeoning middle class. Each day a new figure is conjured up to demonstrate the size of the Indian market, and the clout of the new middle class; is it 250 million this week or has it already reached 300 million?

We embrace these statistics, because we like the idea of India as this century's favourite financial destination. We feel flattered when Time magazine puts our country on its cover, and we talk glibly, especially to foreigners, of social mobility and how the gap between the rich and poor is closing; we argue that India's tomorrow is being built by its industrious and enterprising middle class, and we feel like the future is unfolding, right here and right now.

But here's what we never admit. We're just the worst sorts of snobs.

The social mobility of the last decade has meant that the new middle class does not consist of people like us. Instead, it is made up of people like Garima, who we still find excuses to exclude; we sneer at their lack of Westernized sophistication; make fun of their accents, and we try and ensure that our children have nothing todo with theirs.

Finally, Garima's story exposes India's paradoxical relationship with the English-language. Nobody in the world speaks English like us. We have our own idioms, our own words and our own accents.

We pretend to love our own English and brag about how it is India's great selling point; the reason we dominate the global outsourcing business. But of course deep down we know that our English is not the English that the West really wants. And so, each time we talk to Britons or Americans, we subtly alter our diction and inflection.

When we set up our call centers, we drop the subtlety entirely and start accent classes to teach our young people to abandon the speech patterns of our own societyand to migrate to a virtual, linguistic middle America, where they become impersonators of people they will never meet and never know.

But within India, we still treat our own English as the great social decider. We laugh at regional accents, smirk at those who make grammatical errors and feel most at home with those who talk like us.Everyone else belongs on the other side of the English divide. And as it turns out, the other side of the class and caste divide as well.

Maybe we cling so tightly to this tiny community because secretly we are just insecure. Outside of our little bubble, India is changing. Every major institution in recent times - Parliament, the bureaucracy, the military, our colleges and schools - is being forced to re-write the rules.

A new breed of Indians who no longer look towards the West for self-affirmation, is making its presence felt. We like to call this a decline in quality. But actually, it's the rest of India waiting to get in.

How long are we going to keep the gates shut?

Contributed by:
Pramod Bhave
-Blaming your faults on your nature does not change the nature of your faults !!!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

mein shayar to nahin....

i've heard people going mad in love,doing weird,impractical stuff..and i use to make fun of all this,till the time i myself got caught into it.well,it sounds a little filmy,but i've actually written something for my special someone on valentine's day..its not perfect but its from my heart....

kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir !
ye khayal aksar aata hai humein,
ke woh jo humaarey khayaalon mein aatein hein,
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir ?
ke woh jo aatey hi humaarey khayaalon mein,
kuch kahi unkahi si keh jaatey hein,
ke jinki baaton ko hum sotey jaagtey sochtey hein,
jinnse kuch kehne ko hum roz kuch zubaan tak laatey hein,
par dil mein hi chup ho jaatey hein,
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir?
ke woh jo jinsey milney ko,
humaari nazrein tarasati rehti hein,
woh jinki awaaz mein hum apna naam talaashtey hein,
woh jinki ek muskuraahat par hum hazzaron baar
muskuraatey hein,
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir?
ye dil jaanana chahta hai,ki jinko ye sochta hai,
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir?
ye nazar jaanana chahti hai,jinhey dhoondati hai ye aksar,
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir?
hum jaanana chahtey hein,jinkey baarey hum itna kehtey hein.
kaun hein woh humaarey aakhir?
ab ye yakeen to hai humein,
ke jo humaarey zehain mein itney karib se lagtey hein,
woh aap hi hein.
to ab aap hi kahein,
kaun hein aap humaarey aakhir?

Saturday, February 04, 2006

passion and expression

''Have feet,will dance'' is what Shiamak believes in and now all his students too believe in.dancing is not just a passion for me but it is surely a way of expression.when i dance all my emotions just fly with me,my heart soars so high that i am actually able to disconnect from the world,and my soul just smiles.its something so eternal that its beyond the explaination of words.being on stage gives me a sense of existence.more than the dance itself,being a part of Shiamak Davar Institute Of Performing Arts is something which creates a feeling of passion towards my dance.i joined this school in september2003 without realising that it will become an integral part of my life.
i've learnt some of the biggest things in my life at this place.sdipa has taught me that to be able to give love to others,i've to love myself first.it has made me learn how to respect my mind and most importantly my soul.and this in turn has helped me respecting others soul too.when we pray before our shows or classes,we are told to pray for others first,its just a small example of the kind of values that this place makes its students to believe in.and i have full faith in these values!
i know i will have to leave this institute soon,so i feel sad sometimes.however let me just enjoy and cherish every bit of time that i still have to spend here. as shiamak says ''To be content is a successful endeavor in itself, happiness seeps into life with self-realization, awareness and satisfaction'',lets see how far i go in understanding this truth of life!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

life and love

hey folks! saw rang de basanti today.and it just rocks.its a movie made for the youth as well as the seasoned people of india.well without sounding like a preacher,i just want to say that let this movie ignite somthing inside you...lets make a promise to ourselves that before leaving this earth,we'll definitely give back something to this earth which has done so much for us!i want to share something else as well.i think i am falling in love.well i am 23 and its kind of strange that i am feeling it for the first time in my life.i feel like talking to him all the time,i want to listen to him,i want to do a lot for him,i am his best friend and i want to be there for him whenever he needs me.yet,somehow i am not sure whether this is what they call love is!.i'll let the time decide that for me and for him.for now,life is beautiful,lets just live it to the fullest !!